In my times of loneliness music brings me peace. It doesn’t judge and it’s like a warm sun on a cold winters day.
Sometimes it scares me to think of a world without it.
Because that would be a world devoid of emotion and beauty and just plain dead.
I’m glad for its existence because when everything else is unwelcoming and when the world shuts me out.
I can put on my headphones and escape
Lots of changes have occured personally and professionally.
The personal changes are great. I’m going to grow a beard and I’ve lost a few pounds and my favorite season fall is in sight.
Socially I’m realizing that I need to be a little bit more open but this fucking emotional wall is still there.
It’s like permafrost that no type of global warming can defrost but maybe that’s more because of the aspergers.
There are many times where I welcome getting to know strangers because I figure those are future friends but many times I’m shut tight like a newly born newborn wrapped up in a hospital issued blue blanket.
I’m a fucking work in progress.